Darshan at Rajpur on Meditation February 21,
1971 You say in
meditation instruction, “Look into the middle of what you see,” but I have
trouble seeing the middle. Middle means
what? Just explain. What do you mean by middle? What do you understand at
least? I don’t know what the middle is, because I, if I think of middle visually like with my eyes, then I think of my eyes and . . . . I always say don’t think of the flesh or
bones of the eyes or forehead. When I don’t
think of the eyes then there's just a vast field. Yes, in front
you see some vast darkness. When you close your eyes you see darkness. And
darkness is a wide expanse. The middle does not mean middle point. Oh. You see. So I
have been telling you just that much area (Master cups his hands to indicate a
space 6-8 inches in from of him). That much, not one point. Cannot say on one
point. But you can stay within that area. You see. This is what is meant by the
middle. The middle does not mean a point. You follow me now? When I have meditated
and I lay to sleep then I get more light than when I, uh, when I am in
meditation. You know why?
While lying down you fully relax. That’s all. If when sitting you also fully
relax, you'll have the same. While sitting you must have some tension somewhere;
you are not fully relaxed. If when you are a little on the way, and you lie
down fully, you'll have more. But when one is lying, there is no concentration. You are not to
think of the body, flesh or bones of the head or body. You have to develop,
whether lying or sitting or anything, you see some darkness in front of you.
you are thinking, you are lying, you are conscious of the body, then how can
you find? You have just to fix you gaze outside, not in the body. Whether
you're lying – in front, or sitting – also in front. Do you follow? No! I'm not
talking Greek. Very clear thing. You see. When you close your eyes, you see
darkness in front of you, whether you are sitting or lying – in front. If you're aware of your gaze and not aware of your body, it won't matter whether you lie or sit. Yes. (pause)
you are finding your meditation a bit better now? Do you? Good. Yes. You said don’t
be emotional when you feel something begin to happen, but I don’t seem to have
any control. And I find that the
breathing while I'm not conscious of making it involved, if I begin to feel
this feeling coming around me which I suppose is withdrawal, immediately I
become very conscious of the breathing and it's heavy, and I lose the whole
thing. Is there any way I can prevent myself from becoming conscious of the
breathing? Didn’t I tell
you, you are to fix your gaze outside? Outside; not anywhere in the body. This
is the point. (after pause) do any of you find Master form now and then? Hand
up. One, two. Very little. Are they’re any of you visualizing Master's form? sometimes. Don’t do it.
don’t do it. When you say to
think of the Master, in order to think of you sometimes I think of seeing you
for a second. That’s your own
grace , you see. Praying is all right. Pray. Pray; then sit. That’s all right.
Yes. Does having
your photographs support this habit of visualizing or can it be of good value
having one or two photos like that? Keep
photographs just as. You keep of your friends. not for visualizing. Just as a
bridge for remembering. Yes. Don’t you
keep the photo of whom you love with you? but you are not visualizing. You
cannot visualize one who is above your reach, higher. You simply see some of
the turban, some of the Bread, sometimes one hand, and the arms, like that. You
will at once be able to visualize those who are up to your level or below you. You said that
many times, Master, yet when in meditation, I want to think of you, I see you
so clearly, but usually it is at some time I had seen you personally; I
remember it. but very clearly. That’s all
right. You see, if . . . . there's a
piece of glass and you put a veil behind it, then you can see your face. If you
are overflowing with love of your Master, naturally that will come. But the
glass alone won't do anything. you will see the picture placed behind the
glass. To visualize of your own self is dangerous. Why? Suppose you visualize
somebody who is not what he is supposed to be. Then you'll feel the effect.
Sometimes at the time of initiation, man gets Master's form from the very outset. The time of
initiation, man gets Master's form from the very outset. Visualizing yourself
is of your own make, but if by sweet remembrance his form comes up, that’s all
right. That is not visualizing. That only shows you have banks of love behind
glass. I have on two
occasions upon awakening from sleep seen your face very clearly and I think
that was not visualizing at all. No. That comes
form within; that’s all right. Very clearly. That’s all
right. Sometimes the Master will come in open daylight, sit down, and distaste
to you. you put it in writing. This is a fact you see. [Master now tells about
a disciple who advanced with so much so
that Master appeared to Him and dictated a book, but he disclaimed the Master
and formed his own guru don.] his further progress is retorted. He misused it.
so a man should never think himself sufficient . it is only by Gods will a man
is given. One thing
Master came to Lahore where I used to conduct satsang. He gave initiation to
some people. After initiation was over, he told me, “Well, look here, kirpal
Singh, I have planted saplings –you water them, you water them.: I told I,
“Master , whatever water you send through . . . . I'll gave it.” pipes remain
cold so long as the water is running through them, otherwise they are dried up
. this attitude saves you. so those who assert like that lose it. which is
easier: to shake off the dark veil or put it on again is easier rather than
shaking it off, you see. |