SELF PITY AND SELF CONDEMNATION Self
pity and excessive condemnation is equally bad as it leaves its ugly effect of
remorse and unwanted gloom which feeds the mind harming the mental composure
and equipoise which is essentially a basic prerequisite for successful
meditations. Please learn to be independent, cheerfully attending to your
mundane duties in a severe and detached manner. Regular devotional meditations
fill the gap and the emotions are subdued for a nobler and pious cause. Life
need not be frittered away in unnecessary wranglings or baser sense pleasures
but instead should be best utilized for a higher purpose of liberation of Soul
from the mire of mind and matter. Please shake off all morbid feelings and feel
happy for doing your part with sincerity and loving humility. It is a human
paradox that the more one runs after one's own cherished desires, more
intricate and complex these become, bringing in nervous confusion. So why
should you ever care for others where you have much to accomplish for your own
betterment. It
is unfortunate that you have allowed this inferiority of personality to creep
in your behaviour. It seems to be your own creation and you can mend it by
careful living. The initiates should avoid uncongenial surroundings but it should
not mean a boycott from amiable social contacts. You should give out the five
charged names any time you feel in adverse circumstances, needless when such
like nervousness siezes. You will improve with His grace. You
should try to forget all about your mind and I-ness. It is simply your harping
on it and feeding its ego by constantly thinking about it, which disturbs you.
You must know that regular meditations
replace the vicious qualities of the mind with virtuous ones and gradually
culminate in rising above vice and virtue both. Go placidly amid the noise and
haste and remember what serene peace and harmony awaits you within during
meditations. Beyond a wholesome discipline, please be gentle with yourself.
Such an attempt shall bless you with profound joy and bliss. Nurture
strength of spirit to shield you in all spheres of life. Never feel disturbed
with imaginings. It
is unfortunate that you are still confused. Self pity is bad and breeds
depression and frustration. You must not dwell much on the past howsoever sad
or gloomy it had been. Just learn to live in the divine present. Take life in
right earnest. Plan sanely and then execute honestly, irrespective of the
results which may not be to your expectation but you will have the satisfaction
of having done your part well. You should accept the job which comes your way
and work on it honestly even if it is not to your liking. 'Work is worship' and
as such all honest work should be undertaken in a spirit of dedication. You
will like your job and be more happy. Silent suffering strengthens character
and has much compensation. Please do not stoop to others' whims. Live rightly
and act wisely to save your person. My love and blessings are with you. It
does not matter if you could not live up to the holy commandments until now.
Your sacred aspirations for improvement are laudable. Thus far and no more
should be the motto. If you will follow this golden principle of life, you will
certainly change in due course. Slow but steady paces shorten the journey. One
step in the right direction under the protective guidance of the Master Power
will set the ball rolling. You should please note that every pleasure has its
price and every suffering has its equivalent compensation. The
Master never censures the faults and failings of His disciples. He only
advises that they do not repeat them.
You should, therefore, please be careful in the future in regard to your diet,
as each lapse in this regard will retard your spiritual progress. It
is not necessary to write a confession to the Master every time you commit a misdemeanor. The Master Power is quite aware
of the lapses of His disciples and wishes only that they become aware of these lapses and not to repeat them. Let
your confessions be honestly and openly recorded in the various columns on the
self-introspection diary. This is the sublime principle behind the correct use of
the diary form. |