THE
STORY OF MASTERS ILLNESS
If you think I am ill, you should correct that thought at once. I am not ill; only the body has endured, that the endurance in nearly finished.
The Master, August I, 1971 On June 29 the Master underwent a major operation in a private
nursing home in Delhi. By His grace, the operation was successful and He is
recovering. The
Master fell ill while in Dehra Dun, where He was directing the work at Manav
Kendra, which as every one knows has received
His constant attention of late. After two days of suffering
at his bungalow in Rajpur, during which two doctors were in attendance,
the Master announce His intention of going to Delhi on June 16, and within two
hours the journey was under way. Once in Delhi, there began what seemed and
interminable time of uncertainty and anguish for those who live in the
immediate vicinity of the Master’s Physical presence including the various
members of doctors were called in to give their diagnoses and recommendations
for treatment, the majority of whom stated that an operation was the only
solution. The Master has taken on many and varied physical ailment in the past
which have appeared from nowhere, and showing no trace. Many poor doctor has
been confounded by the seeming weakness and ill health of the Master, and then
His completely robust recovery upon his visit the following day. But never
before has there ever been even a suggestion that such devastating violation
and outrage be performed on His holy physical person – that sacred and
beautiful form, to touch which the truly devoted disciple would lack both
courage and effrontery. It did not seem possible that such a thing as an
operation could really happen; one doubted that the Master Himself would ever
allow it. But as each day came and went, and the various medicines and
treatments that were put forward and tried were achieving no success, the
hopes of those missing who
mer. It began to resemble a bad dream, the only difference
being that on waking each morning the dream continued. Strict
instructions were issued that no one should write abroad or spread the news in
any way until the Master had recovered, as this would give cause for worry to
His children everywhere. However, the news leaked out somehow, and telegrams
began to arrive from various countries, offering the help of their doctors,
and asking permission to come to Delhi. The Master ordered replies to be sent,
explaining that there are excellent doctors in India, and it was unnecessary
for anyone to come. It gradually became clear that the Master was going
to permit the operation, and after the preliminary tests and missing
vate nursing home of Dr. K.C. Mahajan, a brilliant surgeon of high esteem and
national repute. A small group of people accompanied the Master.
The operation was scheduled for 9 A.M on June 29. At 8.30 the nursing home’s anesthetist, Dr. Bilani, gave the Master an injection of the type intended normally to make the patient lose consciousness within two or five minutes, before being wheeled into the operating theatre. After some fifteen or twenty minutes there was still not effect, and when the third and fourth injections were similarly ineffective, the doctors began to look worried; the Master was still wide awake! He said, “What do you hope to accomplish by these injection? I am a conscious entity – how can you make me unconscious unless I will it? If you want me to withdraw I will do so, but your drugs can do nothing.” Straight away the Master closed His eyes and withdrew form His body, which was then wheeled into the theater. The operation finally began at 10:20 A.M and was completed at 11. Also present at the operation, in addition to Dr. Mahajan and his staff, was Major Dhir, the Satsangi army surgeon who had been called from his station at Ambala at the Master’s request. “I want one of my own present,” the Master said. During these brief and painful moments, a group of about one hundred people waited and watched outside the nursing home. The degree of their concern and sadness could be read in their faces. A
few seconds after the operation was over, the Master opened His eyes and asked,
“The Master opened His eyes and asked, “When are you going to start the
operation?” Dr. Mahajan replied, “Master Master said, “Oh, that’s all
right,” and closed His eyes again. The doctors and staff were astounded that
anyone could regain consciousness and speak while yet fully under anesthesia.
Dr. Mahajan told the Master afterwards, “Maharaj Ji, I saw your greatness on
the operating table. From now on I come to you as a devotee.” Dr Mahajan
continues to serve the Master while He is recuperating, attending Him at the
Ashram free of charge. After
the operation, the Master was made comfortable in His room and two private
nurses who had been recommended by Dr. Mahajan were given the nursing duties,
one for day and the other for night. The doctors had advised that it usually
takes two to four hours, for the anesthesia to wear off, but when the
Master’s blood pressure was found to be low due to loss of blood, and
someone ventured to place a hot water bottle under the Master’s feet, He
stirred and said, “Have you asked the doctor first, if you should put that
there?” It was somewhat
disconcerting to find that the “patient” who was supposed to be sleeping
peacefully under anesthesia was checking all movements in the room! The days that followed were yet anxious ones, watching the Master’s progress in recovering. None of the followers were allowed in the nursing home, except a few with special duties. In this way, the Master was not disturbed, and neither was the nursing home’s orderly routing. At least one and sometimes more sevadars were on duty in the reception hall through out the day and night, and the steady stream of eagerly inquiring Satsangis were given the latest news of the Master’s progress. A few persistent devotees insisted on pressing further, but at the Master’s door it was missing For the Master’s rest and peace, no one was allowed to disturb Him. The slow process of recovery seemed very slow. Some days were good, when the Master was fairly comfortable considering the heat of the weather and confined space of His small room; but often He endured fever, pain and other discomforts. Hardly any night was fully restful, and the doctors became concerned that the Master was not getting enough of either rest or food; solid food had not been permitted at first for several days, but when regular meals were allowed the Master took only very small portions. One quiet afternoon, Bibi Hardevi Ji was resting in the adjoining room when suddenly she was aroused from the Master’s room. She hurried there and found the nurse and the doctor on duty beside the Master’s bed. They were anxiously examining the Master’s bed. They were anxiously examining the Master, and the doctor said something about giving an injection. At this point, the Master’s opened His eyes and said to Bibi’s Ji, “It’s all right, tell them not to give any injections – I had only withdrawn completely.” The withdrawal of consciousness and the unusual stiffness of the Master’s body had alarmed the nurse and she had run for the Doctor. Bibi Hardevi explained to them what had happened, and something of the process of withdrawal. They were at once amazed and impressed at what they had seen with their own eyes. Regardless of suffering, the Master did not forget His children who were yearning for a glimpse of Him, and as early as the third day He persuaded the doctor to allow Him to appear on the verandah outside His room, in the evening after the sun had set. Assisted by missing Master walked out and sat on an elevated platform for nearly half an hour, given darshan to the silent and solemn follower below, who numbered approximately five hundred. In the days following there were several evening darshans, and on July 11 the Master spoke to the people, His softly toned words being amplified by Darshan Singh Ji: “I am so pleased to see you
all, and I thank those who have come from far to be here. The sickness, which
was there, has now been cured, and I thank Dr. Mahajan for his help – he is
not here at present. The remaining one percent adjustment is being made. My
Hazur has accomplished a good deal of service through me up to now, and I can
tell you there is much more yet to be done in the future. I request you all to
lead a good life from now on – a chaste life- especially those who live in
our ashrams. I know you try – but now really Do it! I have great love for
you. I know you also have love for me, but perhaps you do not realize the
extent of my love for you.” At this point the Master was overcome, and tears came into His eyes. He turned and went into His room, accompanied by the nurse. After a few minutes. He returned and gave another final darshan to the people, but this time without the nurse; the effect of the Master’s tears of love had been too much for her, and she had herself dissolved into tears. “I have never met anyone with so much love,” she murmured. At last to everyone’s joy, Dr.Mahajan said that the Master could return to the Ashram on July 14, and at 10 o’clock that morning the doctor himself accompanied the Master to his car, which, with Bibi Hardvi Ji and both nurses brought Him back to sawan Ashram. To witness the homecoming was a welcome and joyful relief. After a very brief darshan, the people left the Master to relax and rest in the peaceful, airy atmosphere of the large protected verandah of His own house. The Master’s two nurses – Miss Doris Sam, the day nurse, originally from Dehra Dun, and Mrs. Samin Massy, the night nurse, a native of Firozepur in the Punjab – told that SAT SANDESH staff that they considered it an honor and also great pleasure to nurse the Master; that He had been a model patient, always very loving and affectionate, and never once complaining, even when they knew He was in pain. In order to find out about the various discomforts in His body, they had to ask Him, “Is there pain here? Is there any pain here?” and so on (Dr. Mahajan also observed that although he knew the Master to be in great pain, yet He never complained of it.) He was most cooperative, always trying to make their duties smoother. Both ladies sadly stressed that it was now very difficult to leave Him after fifteen days in His Company. They were also impressed by the Master’s followers: their concern for His health, and their concern for His health, and their subsequent considerate behavior, contenting themselves with seeing Him from afar and not demanding entrance to His room with exception of a few. It is quite a pointer to all the Master’s disciples that one’s behavior is most certainly observed by others – how much more it pleases Master when our behavior earns their commendation! So it was a very sad and tearful farewell when Nurse Sam and Nurse Massy took their leave of the Master, and left Sawan Ashram. At the time of the preparation of this report, the Master is steadily recovering and gives darshan for a few minutes outside His house each evening. Master has their own deep reasons for what they do. Among us unknowledgeable beings, some are bold and speculate the whys and wherefores, while others are helplessly content to conclude, “It is all His will.” The Master Himself has said on this subject, that there is a law of give and take ( karmas and there is also a law of sympathy and sacrifice for the sake of others. Suffice it to say that some huge task has been accomplished; though they know not what, suffice it that children are grateful. Even better, that they review their lives and remove anything that might contribute to a repetitive of such a tremendous compassionate sacrifice in the future. We are glad that the period is over; we hope and pray that He will never again allow His body to endure such suffering and violation. On the first Sunday after the Master’s return from the nursing home, a large number of people gathered at Sawan Ashram for the usual Sunday morning Satsang. They listened to one of the Master’s recorded tape, and then the Master Himself came out and gave darshan, accompanied by Dr. Mahajan who happened to be visiting at the time. The Master very kindly said a few words: “I know you have been waiting
to see me, and are happy to do so after so long; but I am more happy to see
you. “ you have been listening to the recorded talk; to hear the Master’s
voice is a great blessing, but to
see Him, to have the radiation from His presence, flow from His physical form
is a greater blessing. “One is most fortunate to have
a living Master. A man once telephoned me from U.S.A. and said, ‘I just want
to hear your voice.’ while the Masters are in the
world, very few really value their presence, but when they leave, thousands
start worshipping the places they frequented – where they sat, walked,
talked and lived. To have some respect for holy places is good, but to have a
living Master is different something beyond price or value. “Many times I have asked you
to lead a pure and chaste life; today I again ask you to keep your lives clean
and pure, and do at least one hour of meditation every day. I generally
advocate on tenth as being the least spiritual tithe to be observed, which is
about two and missing…… meditate for one hour, I do not
mean that you should not devote more time. When I was in Lahore, I was close
friend with a very learned professor from the University there. He was deeply
devoted to the Islamic religion, and although his leisure hours were closely
guarded and private, yet I was privileged to enter his room freely at any
time. I once remarked to my dear
friend that it was common knowledge that all Muslims do their devotional
prayers with rigid strictness at five appointed times each day, and yet at
given opportunity of a few moments, perhaps a dozen times a day, he would
return to his devotions with sincerity and relish! How did he account for this
extra enthusiasm? He smiled and told me, ‘ The five regular devotions are
one’s duty, but should we not be anxious to seek His pleasure.” “So whatever you offer, over
and Missing…………..
of pleasure to the Master, and a source of progress of yourselves. “Now, this is Dr. Mahajan,
through whose effort the operation was successful.” Here the people clapped enthusiastically, and Darshan Singh Duggal, the Master’s son, gave a short introduction Mahajan. He concluded by saying how grateful everyone was to him for the successful of the operation and the recovery of the Master, but the Master corrected this by saying, “We are grateful to God and Baba Sawan Singh for it was God who worked through him, and by His grace everything was all right.”
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