A Trip to the Source of Our
Light Sharleene Sherwin shares with us, through excerpts
from her diary and a transcribed tape, some highlights from her stay in India
in December, 1969. With well meaning thoughts but complete naivete we
here in New York and Long island thought we could bring Master a gift,
something needed at Sawan ashram. After a very short period at the ashram.
After a very short period at the ashram, the realization dawned that Master
doesn’t need or want any of the material thing we in the west consider so
essential to life. Master wants us, only us. He collects all the pieces and
puts us together so we can go to Him whole, collected, one centered. But in the
meantime there I was in the airport customs section, in pieces, registering two
items for customs duty. In the other lobby were two sweet disciples with the
exact amount of the declared merchandise which Master had handed them before
their departure for the airport to help if needed. Such is his constant love,
protection and awareness of our every situation, both spiritual and mundane. It was not yet light as the car wound its way through
the streets of old Delhi on the way through the streets of old Delhi on the way
to the ashram. We are concerned as we see the poverty and poor housing –by our
standards. (Very clear when in Masters physical presence was his ability to
read our minds and answer our unstated questions. He was heard to say at a
later date that it is the poor who have simple lives, have nothing to distract
their attention from God. When they become wealthy their attention goes to
making more money - “you are where your
attention is. Maintain purity of life.”) One of the first questions Master asked was about my
family –“especially give your husband my love.” I saw the word love come alive
in Master’s face and become a living force. I realize then as I was to realize
again and again during the next two weeks that Master is a total
personification of God love. You can see it and almost touch it in his
presence. We are pining for you in America and feel your love.
“Master come to give love. Like the waves in a huge ocean, one never knows how
far reaching the waves are.” In reply to the messages of love from his disciple, he
said, “Where is it? –the love.” Master has such great love for his children;
our love is only reciprocal. One message was to give Master our love and tell
Him that we need Him. “I am glad some people over there need me. Where there is
a need, the need will be fulfilled.” The highlights of our visit in Sawan ashram were our
morning and evening Darshan. Master would meet with the small group of western
disciple and with complete attention and concern, answer our questions and give
short talks. Written immediately after as best as we could remember, these are
some of the questions and answers: About the degeneration and corruption in America –“a
golden age will arise from this iron age.”
Should we devote equal time to the sound and light
practices at each sitting? “depends on your needs. Spend more time on the
practice you wish to develop more. But devote attention fully to one practice
only. Open only one drawer at a time. Close it, then open up the other drawer.” Listening to the holy sound current –“if you hear it
when not in the posture, it keeps your mind off the world. But put in time in
the prescribed posture because that sound takes you up and then the sound comes
from above.” At one of our first Darshan talks Master talked about
receptivity: when you are in the physical presence of the Master it is easy to
become presence of the Master it is easy to become receptive to his radiation,
like being close to the sun; the burning rays are very strong and penetrating.
Master says that while the physical presence of the Master cannot be underrated
(there is great blessing and radiation from his physical presence), receptivity
can be developed so that Masters form can manifest from any distance both
inside and outside and speak to you. “he is always with you. You only have to
develop receptivity and you will see Him working – I issued a circular just
recently on how to develop receptivity. When you become receptive you feel his
presence all the time.” Master then told us the story of a young lady in India
who wrote to Master saying that he should leave for some time, at least while
she was busy. The Masters form was with her all 24 hours. When the Master did
withdraw at her request she came crying like anything. “so you only have to
become receptive and that Power will even materialize and that Power will even
materialize and lead you by the hand to guide you. Just direct your attention
to Him. Like a radio or TV from thousands of miles receives images let nothing
stand between you and the Master . “when one become truly receptive, what he says is the
same as the Master would say. He simply remembers the Master and that radiates.
When two become one, that is the greatest fear of the love –that is the
greatest feat of love that is what is needed to become the mouthpiece of the
Master . St. Paul said, ‘it is I, not now, I but Christ lives in me.” “Master will never leave you. He is always there
waiting for you. All that you have to do is go within. Master will talk to you
within. he is wanting to talk to you. You do not want to talk to Him.” Do the inner experience have anything to do with the
past karma? Is it the karma that makes the veil so heavy to lift? “yes. Each
one comes with his own past background. The past karma, the time and effort
have all to deal with experience. But even a person who puts in regular time
and perseveres, with bad background, can progress further than one who has good
background and doesn’t try. So it is by earnestness and perseverance that we
become saints. Every saint has his past and every sinner a future. There is
hope for everybody. Even you can become a saint. “We should tithe our time for meditation, putting in
one tenth of the 24 hours at least –the tradition has been that way for so long
in all religions. Put in two to three hours at least. “water, water everywhere, but we haven’t got a speak
of it. We are digging so many pits instead of digging a well. Life. Decide what
you want, and then live for it wholly and solely. “go inside to sit for meditation sweetly and
buoyantly, freshly, as though you are going to meet a good friend. “God is alone and he wants you to come alone. Go alone
to meet God. “Be regular, preserve, and keep your diary. Introspect
your life. Be critical not of others but of yourselves. Evaluate and meditate
on your past, present and future situations and attitudes. “meditate at times you are not needed for worldly
matters that have to be taken care of. “Master makes the union between married couples
stronger. One soul in two bodies united by God. No one should disunite by God.
No one should disunite whom God unites. Give love, more love. When love is
perfect, there will be no problems.” To say that a man has a good spiritual background
–does this mean that he has merits that entitle him to be more in contact? “man
is in the make. Some progress faster, others slower and others have to start
afresh. Why all of this questioning, though? Leave off all questions and just
attend to your meditations with heart and soul. All questions are answered as
you progress. Go inside and you will see. When I sat at the feet of my Master I
asked only three questions answered as you progress. Go inside and you will
see. When I sat at the feet of my Master I asked only three questions in the
beginning. I learned by sitting at his feet, hearing what he said and looking
into his eyes. Leave off all this questioning. If you find something gives you
some good candy to eat, don’t ask questions –eat it. “the more you contact the Light and sound, all
questions will go away of themselves. You will become satiated. If a man is
hungry, when he takes food, the hunger goes away. Similarly, when you give food
to the soul, all questions leave off.” I would like to do something about my emotional
nature, Master. “Construct a house of bricks, leave no opening put them
(emotions) in there to stream, then go to meditate.” Did you say to leave an
opening, Master? “no, no opening, steam will escape.” About leaving ego and arrogance behind: he said as one
becomes more and more in tune with the divine sound and the Master within, you
realize it is not you who is the controlling Power and the ego will leave
slowly. About leaving to prepare non vegetarian food, under
compulsion, for members of your family. “that’s all right. Prepare it with
love, no hatred or resentment in your heart. As you love more and more, they
will demand it less and less.” Should appease the very strong desires of the mind,
like the desire to talk a lot here at the ashram? “if a man wants to see a show
and he would be satisfied by seeing that one show and he would be all right.
But by seeing one show, he will want to see more and more. If you appease it
once it will react with double force, then it becomes habit and forms into
nature. So prevention is better than cure.” But if the frustration in the mind gets very strong? “the
mind is simply our attention directed to the outside. At these times put your
attention on something else. Take a walk or keep the company of righteous
people. Why water a plant if you want
it to die? The more you feed it the stronger it will get. Sometimes you just
have to start to be of resolute will. If you don’t stop now, someday will. If
you don’t stop now, someday you will have to face up to it.” * * * CHIRSTMAS DAY 1969 Everyone has been walking around today looking more
intoxicated than usual. What a shower of love Master has been giving us for
Christmas as the symbolic Santa Claus come to life. After meditation this morning, Master came into our
meditation room a usual, but after talking to us, he said, “You wait here,” and
left. After ten minutes someone called for us to go into Masters house. There
he sat, smiling, with flowers and Christmas messages next to him, each one of
which he had personally signed. We had not been taping Masters talks, but today
a rape recorder was placed at his feet with his permission. He gave us a
beautiful stronger gestures. At one point in his talk while telling us to learn
to die daily, bear our cross, he made a cross of his body. “Take up your cross
daily –learn to rise into the beyond.” Later we were called to our meditation room which our
dear brothers and sisters and transformed into a banquet room with a surprise
Christmas dinner on the table. Master came in. he stood looking at the table
for a while and we stood looking at Him, mute. He asked “whose birthday are you
celebrating? Where are the candles? How many should you have?” he spoke about
the symbolism of the tree of lights: body is the tree and the lights are found
within. Master is in the tree of lights. He then asked if he could have something. He took an
orange, sat down so we could take his picture, then left for an appointed
meeting. Several times during that day he told us to go realize
the Christ Power within you meditate rise above body consciousness. * * * Master, I am in the service and in two months be sent
to Vietnam. I wondered about what to do if I get into combat? “well, they are
fighting less and less over there. President Nixon just announced that they
will be withdrawing some troops. But there are many duties besides fighting.” Yes, I am being rained as an engineer to build
bridges. What should I do if I am told to go into combat instead? “you are an
engineer, you will build bridges. Do your duty. You have no say in the matter.
Do as you are told. You should not take life where you cannot give life. Treat
others as you would yourself like to be treated. Those in charge are
responsible; you have nothing to say in the matte. I was once serving right on
the firing line, too. Bombs were on the firing line, too. Bombs were flying, machines
guns going like anything. I felt no fear at all. The Master Power working
overhead extends all feasible help and protection.” Master, I feel ashamed of being an American citizen
because of the atrocities being committed. “what can you do about committed.
“what can you do about it?” I don’t know, Master, what can I do? “it is those
who are in nothing you can do once they are in Power. When there is something
you can do, then do it; but it is quite out of your hands. There is a higher
Power controlling such things. Have sympathy in your hearts; that’s all right. “its is a pity that we give votes to such like people.
Unless you have full conviction about a man, it is better not to vote at all.
The leaders should be first of good character, integrity. Second, he should
have history of selfless service. Third, he should have a history of selfless
service. Third, he should know the need of the people. Further, when he takes
office he should become the son of the county, not the son of the party. It
after a year the man doesn’t come up to the mark, he should be recalled, not
permitted to go on for four or five years. The law should be like that. Maybe
someday it will. You cam help by wisely using your vote. We should study a man
very carefully before giving a vote; a vote is a very important thing. There
are many candidates coming up from the parties in the country. These are the
tings that will make up good governments in the future. * * * MASTER “David, you have lost your wallet.” Yes,
Master. “well, don’t worry. If you lose your wealth, you have lost nothing; if
you lose your health, you have lost something. If you lose your character, you
have lost everything. I will give you some money.” And he did. * * * Master, how can we best invoke Master’s blessing and
grace before meditation? “prayer. Short prayer, sincere, which comes from the
heart. Sit like this. (Master closed his eyes and showed us how to sit –so
sweetly.) Christ said, ‘go inside your closet and pray.’” * * * A man from Lucknow came to evening Darshan and told
about a lady who was very ill. She prayed to God, asking if there was anyone
who could give her peace. Master appeared within and gave her initiation into
the Surat Shabd Yoga. She recovered and a few weeks later went to a Satsang
where she was Master’s picture. She embraced it, saying, “It was He I saw
inside.” Master’s comment after the story was, “It is God Power working
everywhere.” Master has such humility. Incidents similar to this are always
happening, and always Master gives all credit to His Master, Sawan Singh Ji,
and God Power or Master Power working overhead. * * * Master, is
there any harm in wearing clothes made of dead animals, like furs,
leathers, etc.? “Have you
read the book the Wheel of life? I think this is answered there. Even breathing
is sin, you see. While breathing, so many insects are killed, while walking
too. Truly speaking, everything is sin so long as you remain the doer – until
you become conscious co-worker of the Divine Plan. We wear leather shoes, but
it is a comparative sin, you see. Do as little as possible, the least you can.” Master, my mind is active – when I meditate I talk to
you. “Where there is love,
there is silence. Love is mute. There should be no clutching. Sit sweetly. When
you go to a friend, would you like to hear what he says, or be lost in
yourself?” * * * THE LAW OF GRATITUDE
“You are having some light, dim – but light. Admit it. Be thankful.
Thank God. You will get more next time. Love gives and gives. We get tired of
receiving. Master has so much to give us we think we can't take it all. God can
give His wine only according to the size of the glass. If the glass is two,
three, four ounces. He can’t give the whole bottle, it would kill him.” * * * WORK: Master’s disciple acquire a great respect for
work while in the physical presence of the Master – He Himself setting an
example in this area as a tireless worker for humanity. One of our basic
responsibilities on this path in Man Making is to stand on our own two feet and
earn an honest living by the sweat of our brows. I asked Master about staying home more to meditate.
“No,” Master said, “Work is worship. Meditate when you are not needed as there
is worldly work to be done.” Master seems to expand the days for working disciples
as they relish every working disciple as they relish every free moment for
spiritual practices. * * * How much sleep does the body need? “Both sleep and diet can be brought to a
very little. For a workingman, at least five to six hours required. As you live
in the beyond more and more, you will required less. The Prophet Mohammed was
asked, ‘Do you sleep?” Master explained how attention goes up in conscious
sleep and down in unconscious sleep. “But don’t try to force the number of
hours. Five to six hours minimum. “The more you contact the light and sound, all
questions will go away of themselves. You will become satiated. If a man is
hungry, when he takes food the hunger goes away. Similarly, when you give food
to the soul, all questions leave off.” * * * Master often spoke about serving others, the God in
them, sharing with others rather than giving charity. He said that if you serve
for the sake of service it is binding. If you serve for the sake of Master, it
is not binding. If you serve any person, you serve for the sake of Master, it
is not binding. If you serve any person, you serve God; God is in all. And he
quoted Jesus –“if you put food in another person’s mouth who is hungry, you
just put food in my mouth” –and pointed to his mouth. * * * This section is transcribed directly from a tape. MASTER “what is greed? Greed comes under –you want
something at the cost of others. You squeeze blood of others –it is the blood
that stains the cloth. If we squeeze the blood of others by fair means or four,
then comes under non violence.” Master, when we go back to the U.S. –hate to think
about it . . . . MASTER “look here, live in the living present. There
is yet two days more –be thankful you are here. When we are sitting we are
here. When we are sitting we are always pondering over the past or the future.
Two sprites take possession of our thoughts. Live in the living present –joy,
joy, be thankful for it. That’s part of your devotion. When you go, then its
all right; we’ll talk about it.” That’s the whole thing –why not make the best
use of your time while you’re here two days more? Be here wholly and solely:
forget your past, friends and relations, even your body. “You know you are here only for a short time. Even
short time, make the best use of it. You are busy writing letters to your
friend. I am here, today I saw this . . . in this way you are nor deriving the
full benefit of the time here. Short time fully benefit of the time here. Short
time fully devoted will give you more benefit than a year. “There were two friends; one was very fond of going to
church, the other of paying in the field. They were obstinate in their own
ways, so one went to the church and the other to the play ground. The one in
the church was all the time thinking, ‘oh, my friend must be kicking football.’
The one in the field was thinking ‘my friend must be sitting in prayer.’ Who is
better? The one who plays football. “When you are here, you shouldn’t be writing too many
letters, only the few that are unavoidable. I am not hard. I am simply showing
you how you can make the best use of your time here. You are here. You are
wholly and solely with me. Christ once said –you know what he said?’ eat me and
drink me.’ What did it mean? How can you eat the Master? Master is word made
flesh: you have to eat the word made flesh: you have to eat the word and drink
me.’ What did it mean? How can you eat the Master? Master is word made flesh:
you have to eat the word and drink it –that word within him –by ‘eyes are the
windows of the soul’; soul charged with that will give you that if you are
wholly and solely there; if you keep your gaze there, soul speaks through the
eyes. “People become very much learned but we don’t follow
what we read. “These are small tips –these things are not given in
books, they are there, but garbed in a way, just like an almond: you need to
take off the shell to get the kernel.” * * * It was inevitable for that last day of departure to
come. Master said that Guru Arjan once prayed to his Master said that Guru
Arjan once prayed to this is how we all feel when we are about to leave the
physical presence of Master. Each disciple receives the same complete loving
farewell. As we leave, we know that we can never really leave Master as he is
so firmly embedded in us, his disciples. As Master was handing us some parshad, he said to tell
them (them future recipients of this blessed candy) to take a little piece
before meditation and it will become true parshad, otherwise it is only candy. The last words I remember Master saying on new year’s
eve as we left to meditate in the new year: “learn to stay longer in the beyond
–it is the highest thing you can do in the man body.” |